As I Fall

On my knees I find myself in my time of need

As the world continues to move, life stops inside of me

Could it actually be this bad, what happened, why can’t I breathe

If I can only get through this jam, time would come back to me

Tough times, rough times how did I get to this place

Trying not to cry, forcing a smile, all I feel is disgrace

Concern I can see it, words of worry reach my screen

I act as though I am just sick, tired, and over exaggerating

I drive to eat, though I can’t think to even stomach food

I pass a woman, tattered clothes, sick, and bare foot

Tears as they begin to fall, I pray for her in god’s name

In hopes that someone somewhere is doing for me the same

A warm smile and hugs meet me with sincerity

How could I be this lucky to have you here with me

You make my worries drift away, I feel as if I have no fear

I begin to see why exactly god has brought you here

For one brief moment you make my disarray disappear

Conversation drifts toward happy moments in time, not tears

Not once do I think I should cry in front of you

Strength you give me to keep going, move forward, I know now what to do

 At ease you put me, a calm it moves my way

Words escape us, but your smile is all I need for you to say

You understand, you’ve been there and here for me you are

No matter how bad it gets, you promise to be close, not far

I leave feeling serenity, a little more at ease with what I must begin to deal

Little did I know that god had a plan to help the control I should feel

Angels you can call them, maybe even miracles, but saints they are to me

When god chose who should guide me through life, no one better could his pick be

My parents, I love them for their protection and unwavering love

 All I can do is drop to my knees and give glory and thanks above

For when you are down, as you look all around for your guiding light to shine

Remember god gave us angels from above, I couldn’t be more grateful for mine

April Lammons