Silence is what fills the room though tension persists
Anger roams around and squeezes in each cavity of your existence
What could there be to discuss, apologies have already been given
But under your blank stare, cold touch and frustration you are boiling
With negative thoughts, your face says it all and it’s not quite the dearest
I ask for answers but only get rolling eyes and looks of disgust
I decide to let it go, talking is not quite your strong suit
But that was the wrong choice as your words cut me with the strength of a brute
Mouth hanging wide, shocked is my expression
You’ve made up your mind I am wrong for my decisions
How could I be such a terrible person?
How can I not see that that I’m wrong for my choices and actions?
Defend myself I do, strong and unwavering
Yet at me again you come with your plan of dismembering
It’s clear you’ve thought for lengths on my disturbing behavior
But what you don’t see are the words that came after
Remember that time, or wait all those years
Remember when you left me, now here come the tears
Remember when it was your choice to leave me for these actions
Remember when I didn’t get to decide as you left my heart cut open like a canyon
Remember how I let you back in and I let you stay
Remember how I let your wrong actions become right and you get your way
Remember when I left my friends for yours and chose you
Remember I let you choose your friends, but choose me you did not do
Don’t ever come at me like I’m not fully committed
Don’t ever act as though I have done anything other than given
You everything, regardless of cost time or energy
Don’t’ ever act like I have only thought of me
For when you decided that regardless of my feelings, everything you must have
I fell to my knees trying to do nothing but give
So stop and think before you come at me with your hurtful words like you do
And remember that when it got rough you chose your friends, when I chose you
No Words, April Lammons
