Watching Over Me

When I was young we’d laugh, run, and play,

You loved me like no other.

You’d pick me up each time I’d fall,

You were my big brother.

Though times were tough, your times rough, you always stopped to see,

How I was doing, what was wrong, you always checked on me.

When I was sad you’d lift my spirits and try to make me laugh,

You’d even say, “Girl I raised you, I even gave you baths”.

Our time was short; I remember that day as you hid beside the bed,

One finger lay across your lips; the other clutched a gun instead.

I was not scared; I stood tall and knew I couldn’t tell,

I knew I wasn’t supposed to lie, but I wanted him home not in jail.

As the night passed the cops came and went, your secret safe with me.

In the night is where you ran to a place of safety.

I missed you then and continued to for it would be awhile,

Before I got to see your face and your loving smile.

You told David to watch me close, you had to go for now,

Things went wrong; you’d messed up but promised you’d be back somehow.

Days had turned into weeks and months turned into years,

I thought of you always, most memories brought tears.

Visits were few and far between, each time as I got older,

You would look at me so proud and happy that my head was high on my shoulders.

Though distraught from your absence, shame there never was,

You were my very flesh and blood, I was proud of the strength in your cause.

After years of waiting the day finally came that we could be together,

Excitement filled my heart and soul; I was going to get my brother.

To bring you home to be with me, mom, dad, and David,

Our family was finally back together and you as the glue to bond it.

We had so much fun, laughter there was plenty,

We went out on the town and I would have to agree,

That times with my brothers brought me back to the days when we,

Were young at heart and played for hours in our own fantasy.

But once again fate should strike and time with you would be short,

God decided he needed you more and placed you in heaven on his court.

I talk to you still in my dreams and all of my after thoughts,

I don’t think you will ever know the pain that missing you brought.

Though you are gone we must remember the little joy you gave,

To our hearts and our lives, Haleigh Elizabeth was her name.

She keeps us going especially mom and dad; she helps them through the tears,

She even says, “I love my daddy,” she remembers you even after 2 years.

Though memories are many, they always bring me back to that day,

You lay beside the bed and I made a promise not to say,

Where you were, for I was selfish I wanted you to be near,

I needed you in my life, like right now I need you here.

I think of your words and your actions, things you would do,

I stand strong and am proud of me, like you always told me to.

And each time I get to see your little girls face,

I see all the tenderness you taught her I even see your grace.

You are not here once again in body on this earth,

You are in God’s house in heaven, you and all you are worth.

The way I see it you are in heaven but only visiting,

You are my love, patience, and strength; in my heart you will always be with me.